what's the deal?

Couple of weeks ago I bought Grazia, the weekly glossy which I consider is the best among the ones in offer and I must admit I was fairly disappointed at their cover story. They showed with great pride and as if it was a great accomplishment, how much weight Courtney Love has been able to shed in the last 3 months. Now, is this something to be proud about? I mean, I know she was a bit chubby in some not so recent pictures but making her the center story followed by the secrets of Posh Spice, Angelina Jolie and Cameron Diaz (at least she practices surfing!) is just ridiculous to me. It's BS. Fast and extreme weight loss can not be a positive message to any woman. Especially for a woman like Love, who is 5' 10.
There is all this debate going on about how girls are lured into being skinny, or not eating because of their fashion icons being so thin... and the first ones to endorse such attitudes are the women's glossies! I mean come on, aren't we on the same team here? Women magazines should be helping the Cause, not making it worst! Pure deception.

Do you think this looks nice:





I don't!!

my obsession with food

Lately, I have been obsessing with food. I am almost certain that this is a psychological mechanism to deal with other more stressful things that are happening in my life. I have come to the point where I don't really know. Am I fat? Or am I really ok? Have I lost all perspective? Am I getting to that point where I start to 'see' myself fat but I'm not. I mean, you have to understand. I am from Venezuela. We don't do fat! If you are fat you don't count yourself as a person, you get my drift?

Anyhow... I am doing my bit, making my effort, doing my exercises. Actually, running down that beach you see in the top picture is quiet relaxing. Just don't do it on a Sunday, cuz it's so packed of people eating ice cream, making bbqs and enjoying food without any regret that it will just send you straight to some sinful place for food... hehe.. like Burger King, MacDonald's or even Pizza Hut, God forbid!

On the other hand when you have too much time on your hands and not a lot of stuff to do, you can't help but eat a lot, right? So, what I do is I eat lots of pineapple, lots of yogurt, lots of soy milk :) Here I go again about the food. It's like my mind only thinks about food!! heeellppp!!!

What has really helped me is a thing my honey taught me and that is: to make lists. You see, he is a Virgo and Virgo's like to make lists naturally. It's just in their nature. So each day I make a list of things I have to do even small things like make a phone call or write an email and you could not imagine how much satisfaction I get from crossing each of those little tasks out. :) Pure bliss! A tiny tiny feeling of fulfillment.

Of course this may seem dumb to some people. Maybe people who have much more important things going on in their lives, like the arrival of a new member in the family!!! Yes, my sweetum's sister had her baby T O D A Y!! How cool is that? Turn out she looks just like her daddy, she is in perfectly good shape and the family is rejoicing with happiness. Hopefully me and my honey will be able to meet her in December. I really look forward to that!

the 2012 logo

The new logo for the London 2012 Olympics has been revealed. It's one of the first times the logo will be used for the olympics and paralympics. What do you think?
It's supposed to be a brand that will sustain itself from here until 5 years when the Olympics take place. It's also supposed to appeal to younger crowds, accustomed to using the internet, mobile phones and other new technologies. I personally don't find it very attractive but then again, I'm not so young. :)

how do you do it?

How do you go about life, giving it all you can, being the best you can be, but still being humble enough to open that space where something grater than you acts for you?
See, I think that we have to work hard, plan goals and work hard to achieve those goals. But we can't be so innocent. ok.. maybe I should speak for myslef... :)I can not be so innocent to think that it was only me who made it happen.
I always truly believe that there is an element of luck, faith, higher power... that does the rest of the job. I can not be so filled with myself and actually think that it was just me who did it.
Recently, I have been trying to explain this to a loved one and it's been so tiring. He doesn't really acknowledge this idea. Do you have any tips?

the things that will never come back...

Staying up and doing Uni work all night!... ahhh those are the days that will never come back :) hehehe... can u notice that I am a bit delirious? I have been up all night writing my campaign proposal, it is 6:39 am and it is an extremely beautiful chilly morning here in Bournemouth.
I am attaching a picture so you can enjoy the view.

do you fly in your dreams?

Recently someone has been telling me that they dream they can fly. Personally, I have never dreamt this before. Some say that when you dream you have been flying it is in fact because you had an outer body experience. There are some books out there written about the subject. I even came across a person once in Brazil, who took a course on how to lave the body while awake.
The funny thing about it is that almost everyone I know that has had this dream agree that it is a very thrilling experience because it is said to be very, very real. One person said he was just learning to fly in his dream and he had to practice a lot. He would actually feel being lifted a couple of centimeters above the floor and after trying for a while he was able to elevate himself further.
My recommendation: practice! Every night before going to bed, plan a trip. Think of the places you would like to go, or a person who is far away and you would like to see. Have you had any type of experiences like this? I'd like to hear about them. :)

Pure Enjoyment

After 7 months of study and play here in Bournemouth I have come to accept the fact that I will never see some of these marvelous people with whom I have shared. The fact that we were at the same place at the same time, gave us a chance to know each other. We shared, we partied, we had our ups and downs. But you know what's the coolest thing? That the moment you accept the fact that this is only temporary and that you have to move on, that's when other great people start to appear in your life. Out of the blue you start to meet new friends and you realize that it's OK. :)

So, some of my friends are moving to London, some will stay here in Bournemouth over the summer. I still don't know what I am going to do. But on thing is for sure, I will miss this nice little town. I know, I know... wait till the weather gets crap again, right? hehe... The thing is that ocean and sunny weather make all the difference to me. Today we went to this restaurant on the beach, the sun was shinning, we ordered a bottle of Prosseco (Italian white sparkling wine!), and we just sat there enjoying the fact that we are here and now. Not worrying about writing the proposal, not worrying about the job interview, not worrying about housing in London... or anything! How great is that. Sometimes I think I live for these moments. These moments of pure enjoyment. :)

I hope the weather is nice tomorrow. Well, I won't be enjoying it anyway. I have to work and it's not outside.. it's in this old, rundown department store in city center. At least my manager is great! I really like her, she is one of the nicest persons I have met here in Bournemouth. It's funny how I always seem to gravitate towards people that have my same spiritual interests. More on that later...